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Praise you in this storm May 7, 2008

Well I had a get together today with some friends altho we were doing gardening which is not on my top 10 list of favorite things to do…we had a nice talk ….and caught up on new stuff going on in our lives…….I talked with one of the gals when I first got to her home ( I was the first to arrive ) and we discussed some of my struggles with church……God…….just the changes of activities that there once were at the church and/or that I used to be involved in and different friends that are not there………and she reminded me that sometimes God pulls things or people a little away from us so that we can focus more on him……so maybe that has been my problem……prior to going to this get together I was at the gym and I had on my ipod and the song Praise you in the storm was on…..and the words hit me….it was like one of those HELLO moments….

I was sure by now,God,that you would have reached down

and wiped our tears away,

stepped in and saved the day.

But once again,I say amen

and it’s still raining

as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain,

“I’m with you”

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away.

Well time to make some speggetti…..thanks for listening….!

Heavy,Heavy,Heavy my heart is heavy Lord May 6, 2008

Well,I am not sure what is wrong with me but I seem to be sad these last few weeks……and I just got back from a wonderful fun vacation in Walt Disney Florida………I can’t put my finger on it….there are some tough things at church………….friends who were there and now are not…….I miss them……..I question certain things and I worry and I get a little angry sometimes and I have to REALLY refocus myself and try to not doubt where or why God is having me go down this path …….but it is extremely tough………….!!!!…..What am I to learn from this ?……..I am struggling with mom things like am I doing a good job as a mom…am I helping my son to become a caring,sweet responsible son….who appreciates the blessings that God gives us……..I wish that he had a closer relationship with our older son …….but fear that he does not because of Danny having special needs…….oooohhhh do I sound pathetic or what MAYBE I just need a good cry and get over it all…….Im not sure why sometimes I am so positive and upbeat and can conquer anything and why times like now I feel like I am empty……..could it be my love tank or whatever is depleted and it needs to be filled…….not really sure…..please pray  for me ……..I know sometimes we need to stay in tough spots to make us stronger…….but I hope that I can learn what I need to from all this somewhat soon cause to be honest i don’t like feeling weak,and sad….as you know usually I am happy and bubbly and full of laughter…well thats all for now………….bye..!